Devolution, Evolution, Revolution...To The DeXtreme!

In the midst of プロレス (Japanese Professional Wrestling)

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 05:40:57 GMT

Waiting for my copy of Fire Pro to get here has been really painful. It shipped yesterday and now I'm just killing time playing other games and (surprise!) studying. Still, I really want some awesome Japanese pro wrestling action. That prompted me to go on youtube to just find awesome clips probably from the KENTA/Marufuji rivalry from way back when. However, when I was searching, I realized how much freaking better Japanese women's professional wrestling is to much of men's American professional wrestling in the States. Its not much of a matter of sexism as it is of just pure talent some of the Puroresu ladies show in the ring. God damn, some of that stuff is just inhuman. Still, I gotta admit that one of my favorite wrestlers of All time is Megumi Kudo, who retired in the late 90s I believe when being known as one of the best Women's deathmatch wrestlers ever. I still have some of her matches on DVD and they are quite awesome. Also, her finisher was freakin' awesome and just looks sick as hell. The Kudome Valentine, aka the Vertibreaker was a sick looking reverse piledriver. Homicide from LAX in TNA uses it and calls it the "Gringo Killer" but it was toned down to be a bit more safe. Instead of landing on the back of ones neck like with the Kudome Valentine, Homicide sort of jumps so that the opponent can land on his back. It doesn't look as good, but that's just my personal opinion.

I did find this video on youtube of "the greatest Women's wrestling finishers" and I got to admit a lot of those looks sick as hell. So much so that I may look up the matches of some of the ladies because the fights look really good. Seriously though, Moonsault Double Stomp? FREAKING AWESOME. You must see it for yourself:

Man, I really hope Fire Pro gets here on Monday so I have Thanksgiving for KOF, Fire Pro, and Persona 3 :D.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of Laundry

Sat, 17 Nov 2007 06:30:22 GMT

Doing laundry always makes me feel better after I get it done. Its a little strange, but I really do feel a lot better once all my clothes are clean again. I like to do laundry when I'm a little troubled. And I suppose it was really good timing.

I don't rank today as one of those days like yesterday. Yesterday was a really good day for me on several levels. Beyond the awesomeness of King of Fighters XI, I did have an interesting conversation with a friend of mine and when I have good conversations with friends, it does make me feel a lot better. Beyond that, the day was just really good and productive. It was enough productivity to keep my mind off the stupid things I was worrying about for the past few weeks. Besides, I think it is time to finally exorcise those negative feelings and just leave it in the dust for good.

Laundry helps me with the process. It is literally cleaning, so I can clean off all of those negative feelings from midterms and my life in general. And its a nice feeling knowing that all of your clothes are clean after all ^^. There is a bit of a peeve I have about doing laundry: it cost so damn much. I'm always somewhat disgruntled when I walk up to that Laundry Web Access machine, knowing I'm spending at least $10 to recharge my laundry card. And the actual prices for the washer and dryer aren't too great either. Usually, the majority of that $10 is gone within three loads of washing/drying. And that's usually why I go back to San Diego to do laundry. However, I haven't been back to San Diego in more than two weeks now, and I'm having mixed feelings about the whole thing. I haven't been away from home this long since I believe freshman year and I do sort of miss being at home for a short weekend. I just need to get through three days and I can head home for the long Thanksgiving break, something I have been waiting for for a long time now. I really want the holidays to be here because that means that 2007 is almost over. I'm seriously done with this year and looking forward to the future at this point.

As a parting note for today: I used to be an advent writer but now I just write in this journal everyday as an attempt to try to find a love in writing. I think the best kind of writing (or the one that really does make me feel better, which is my only concern at this point) is the random writing. The only other type of writing that really does make me feel better is writing about my emotions. Just describing my mood and how I feel is a story in itself. Sometimes the story sucks, and other times it sucks even more, however like I said earlier, this writing is just to make myself feel better. In relation to that Personality test I took earlier this week, I am a very emotional person and I guess this blog is the closest manifestation of how I feel in a controlled way. Still, it never beats just talking to me in person. That in itself is a bit of a story.

I suppose that rant was quite random. Oh well, hope everyone has a good weekend.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-ーデクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of King of Fighters XI

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 08:22:50 GMT

I was so freaking happy when I went to Play N Trade after my late class on a whim and found a copy of King of Fighters XI for 15 bucks. I originally ordered it online along with Fire Pro Wrestling Returns on Buy.com because of a $10 discount, which means I would be getting one of the games for an awesome 7 dollars WITH shipping included. However, when I got home from class, I checked my email to see if they actually sent the package, but to my surprise they had KoFXI delayed. So it prompted me to cancel it and buy it then and there :D. I was so glad to return and buy it, finding out it was the last copy there.

Hell yes. It was quite a good way to end the day. When I popped the game into my PS2, I was even more satisfied playing through the game and learning the awesome stuff of the game. The art is really nice, the fighting is nice and updated and everything of the game just lived up to my expectations. It is an awesome fighting game. I do admit that I am more of a KoF guy than a Street Fighter guy (which explains why I still think CvS2 is an awesome game). Now it comes down to learning some characters I've always learned, not taking tiers into consideration:

Iori Yagami - Leader
Terry Bogard - Support I
Whip/Tizoc/Yuri - Support II

As you can see, Iori and Terry are pretty much set as my main guys. But the reason I keep Iori as leader is that I like his Dream Cancel better than Terry's Dream Cancel. Since Iori does Maiden Masher and Dream Cancels into his LDS, it does more damage and looks a lot cooler too. Terry is good for good quick shots and some classic Garou Combos. Now, either using Whip, Tizoc, or Yuri still has me thinking because I'm not sure which one I like more. Whip and Tizoc are more capture type of people, but Yuri has a balance in which she is similar to Ryu and Ken from Street Fighter with some major differences. However, learning how to use Whip is pretty awesome. Besides, one of her moves is Desert Eagle, which is awesome all in itself, but a little on the useless side.

I haven't gone through all of the game yet. Right now Roy's playing Mario Galaxy, which I'm having a blast just watching and waiting until Winter break to dive into the game. Hopefully, my other copy of KoFXI is cancelled and my copy of Fire Pro Returns gets here soon. I'm having a hankering for some 4-on-4 Survivor Series style elimination Deathmatches.

Its on to Japanese homework...among other things.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of last minute assignments

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 07:38:01 GMT

It happens that I ended up procrastinating again for another project that ends up messing with the rest of my homework assignments. This means that my backlog for homework has been growing once again. Although I have to admit that the first chapter of Through the Looking Glass from Alice in Wonderland was actually pretty good. Still, I only read one chapter of about 12 or something. Bleh, that's something I have to do over this weekend hopefully and I don't get all lazy all of a sudden.

Right now I'm taking a break from my screenwriting homework, which is arguably my only real homework. Still, I have other things to do as well. Most of it probably pertaining to Japanese and my constant study for it. I think out of all my subjects, Japanese is one of those subjects in which I essentially fell in love with. I really do enjoy studying Japanese no matter how difficult it gets. Although I don't have enough time to really put some hardcore studying into Japanese, I wish I did. I really do like studying that language despite my "introverted" nature. (The last statement is actually a subject for a completely different time where I have enough time to talk about "the most accurate personality test I have ever taken...ever")

Still, I feel rather good about the last minute burst of creativity I'm getting with this homework assignment. It was a really really slow start, but it's speeding up in a hurry and hopefully I have enough time to do some extra stuff to cover all the bases for the damn screenwriting class (aka the bane of my fall quarter).

The music really does help with this painful process of homework. Just listening to the entire Persona 3 soundtrack makes me appreciate both the music and the game a hell of a lot more than I did before. It has some kickass music.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of resonant laziness

Tue, 13 Nov 2007 07:32:14 GMT

This is bad. For the entire weekend, I just essentially shut down academically and didn't do any homework until tonight. I stared about an hour ago and luckily finished at around 11, meaning I can still get a good 8 hours of sleep in tonight. However, I have this feeling of a resonant laziness that hopefully can be slept off. I have learned in the past that it usually isn't that easy. When coming back from long weekends, one of two things happen. One is that I actually study everyday over the weekend and I don't feel like I have been taken out of the school element. Second is that I completely shut down to recharge and have this kind of "warming up" effect either the day before or the day of returning to school. Right now I'm having the second effect happen to me both mentally and slightly physically. Although it isn't an actual school-day today, I feel really lazy and I hope it doesn't carry into tomorrow, but I have a feeling it will because of the feeling of being unprepared. In addition, tomorrow is the day when I receive my midterm for E100 back, meaning I'll see the D grade that I knew I would get when writing the goddamn thing. Its not that I'm angry at the class or teacher, but more at myself for being such a terrible student this quarter. My performance is usually decent, but for some reason this quarter has been extremely streaky and overall bad. I can go on and on about stuff that has happened to me, but at this point it doesn't matter. I fucked up for the most part. I know I should just focus on school. And although it may be a bit late, it is going to happen. Things do change, and although it is going to be hard, I will change.

Going off of more of my otaku-style of going about life, I'm going to start viewing my life a bit more like Persona 3's way of simulating a social life. I know, it sounds stupid, but making reality into smaller, more manageable tasks like the ones in Persona 3 will help me get through the toughest quarter I have had yet. I have about 4 weeks to turn my grade into a C or above. Hopefully my new way of looking at reality will help a little bit. It will probably end up with two choices at the end of the day: sleep early or study. And looking at the end of my day like that will help me realize what I need to do any what-not.

Its been a strange weekend in terms of what I've been feeling. The weekend was very restful and I got several hours of backlogged gaming in. However I really felt like something was missing or just felt like I was disturbed by something that I don't even know about. Even now, I'm wondering what it is, but I'll probably drop it soon, seeing that since I don't remember it, it probably wasn't that important anyway.

I really need to pick up my game in terms of academics. To hell if I were to really lay down and get my ass kicked by my classes for the rest of the quarter.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of jarGon (Episode 3)

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 07:41:53 GMT

In the same vein as I spent the day today, whatever I'm talking about for today will probably be somewhat random, very jumpy, and probably non-sensible to some, but it makes absolutely perfect sense in my mind. In the end, isn't that all that matters? Of course, now moving on.

I suppose the reason I actually pulled myself to actually write a blog and a couple was the fact that the freakin' Chargers pulled out a win today against the Colts. I really do respect the Colts, they're worthy opponents and I don't mind them being the rivals rather than those bastard Patriots (which I really, really don't like). Besides, today was a good match although a lot of the Colts starting line was injured over the past few weeks. Still, for the Chargers: a win is a win. Although it really doesn't alleviate what happened from last week, it still helped a hell of a lot with the healing. The Chargers Defense was really good and the special teams was just kick-ass. If anything, it almost seems like the defense did better with Cromartie at Jammer's place. Overall, it was a hell of a game, especially since it was a rain game and that in itself caused a lot of drama. Rivers dropping the ball in the end zone trying to pass?! People slipping all over the place? OMGWTFBBQ?!

Other than the Chargers game, I would say that today was exciting in an uneventful way. I believe that today was the first time in a while I could just sit back and relax without something breathing down my neck like homework and such. There is a bit of a break for midterms before the third tier of midterms starting around Wednesday with a Japanese quiz and the second part of my groups' screenwriting midterm. Last week went rather well and I was excited about that, we just need to finish off this and the rest of the class is essentially cake. However, just writing the actual script may be a little challenging for all of us in the group. Its a hell of a lot of work and I would be lying if I said I didn't care. Besides, I still need to receive those terrible grades for my English midterm and get torn apart by the professor multiple times to actually just get a C probably. Ugh, that'll be fun. Hell yes.

As for today, I didn't worry about what I said in the paragraph above. I just sat in my apartment, starting at around 7 this morning. I ended up essentially playing Persona 3 all day until the Chargers game started at 5:15. When I started playing this morning, my game timer was at about 4 hours of game-time. At the end of the day, my timer was at about 13 hours. I believe that this was the most I've ever played in a day and I don't regret a single minute of it. From helping my best friend in the game ask out his teacher to fighting a boss in a game with a "B" and a "J" for nipples and her legs spread, every single minute was awesome :D. And I would do it again anytime. Hopefully I can, but balancing Persona 3, Zack & Wiki, King of Fighters 02/03/XI, and Super Mario Galaxy will be one hell of a task. Oh well, it'll have to be done.

In other news, my roommate Roy is currently playing Fire Emblem: Radiant Dawn and although I'm too damn impatient for turn-based strategy games, its quite fun just watching the game and how goddamn frustrating the game is for him. Really, its like a bastard game of chess with beautiful artwork and music. I really like the artwork and the characters names in the game. There are some freaking awesome names: Micaiah, Zihark, Nephenee, Mordecai, the list goes on and on. Most of them are indeed on my awesome names list along with notable names like Xepher and Cornelius.

As one more note, on a really random impulse, I ended up telling my brother to pick me up a Deluxe class Barricade Transformers Movie figure. Again, I'm not sure why, but it does make me quite happy XD.

Hm, Micaiah...I really like that name. :D

-Dexstrosity_x2
ーデクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of November 6?

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 07:24:03 GMT

This is an interesting exercise I just thought of right now that would probably help with that memory problem I think I have with trying to recollect just a few days ago. Since it's actually the 8th, I want to see how much of the 6th I actually remember. It may be strange, and I may tangent when I feel like I'm floundering, but still, I think it would be good to recollect every now and then. Besides, I didn't write anything for that day, and I think this would count if I remembered what actually happened that day for that day.

The biggest thing I remember happening on Tuesday was that abysmal Kanji test for my Japanese class. Although it was funny, it was also rather disheartening when she told other people they just need to change one, while when my sensei picked up my test, she really didn't know what to say. I can laugh about it now since it has already happened, but at the time, it was both funny and a blow to my confidence, albeit a small one. However, I did survive to fight another day and I think I am slowly developing a decent way of studying Kanji so I can actually remember how to write them as well as their meanings. It doesn't sound like much, but I do admit I am a slow learner. It does take a little grinding of the gears for me to actually get concepts down. It may be because of my lack of confidence every now and then, but at the same time, even when I am confident, things aren't recollected properly and what I thought is right is actually wrong. Its an ugly scene when it happens.

Other than the kanji test, the second event I remember vividly from Tuesday is the big screenwriting meeting I had with my screenwriting group to attempt to finish our basic story. It was a long and painful grind, with many writer's blocks and painful silences. We were able to get through about half of our script in a three-hour block, which was really good progress looking back at it. I just remember after that just kind of being dead in front of my computer, unable to write anything. Therefore, I don't feel bad visiting that day.

It wasn't much in terms of action-packed non-stop action, but it was my life on November 6th, and I lived it. I guess this is where I bid adieu, with nothing really noteworthy to say. However, I suppose I can quote something that my English professor said in the near future: "The Book of Genesis can essentially be summed up like this: 'Bitch! It's all your fault! You took the fucking fruit!'"

Peace out ya'll！

-Dexstrosity_x2
ーデクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of aftermath

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 06:54:16 GMT

In all honesty, I'm not even sure what to write at this point. I have this tendency of having something to write in the middle of the day, but when I actually get around to writing what I had for an idea, I just completely forget it. It really is a bad trait that I've tried to exorcise, but for some reason, I never truly change it. I suppose you can say I'm just forgetful, and I'm hoping that actually updating my journal every day will help with my memory recollection. In the case of today's journal, I don't know if it will have the same effect as when I first ran the idea through my mind earlier today, but I hope it turns out as well as I want it to.

So today wasn't a good day. Although it ended on a high note, it started off crappily, it got worse throughout the middle of the day, the crescendo reached around 3:30 (which will be explained later on), and suddenly all negativity was wiped away in my last class. Although it was a really bad day for the most part, I'm pretty sure the last class made up for most of what happened today. What made my day rather terrible wasn't what I did or didn't do (like usual) but what I actually found out today that really kind of brought me down. As you can tell from the title of today, it was basically the aftermath of my midterms, in which I actually found out what my grades were. They were (I believe for the first time) rather average. Usually, I'm somewhat happy with at least most of my grades, but for some reason, this quarter, I dunno. I think it may be because of everything that's happened outside of my academic life recently, but my grades really did suck this time around.

I found out that in my Japanese Class, I scored a crappy score opposed to my peers. Later on that day during my discussion for my Criticism class, the entire class found out from the teacher that everyone "didn't do so well," but she didn't tell us the details. Later, during my Romantics and Victorians English class, I found out that I got a B- on the midterm, bringing my confidence rather low. In my screenwriting class, I found out that our collective group as a whole forgot to label the things we were supposed to for our script, making me believe that we were going to do really badly on the midterm. However, when it came down to actually presenting the midterm, we actually did pretty well and the two group members who wrote the final draft really did an awesome job polishing the script. So I was happy, and luckily it ended on a good note. However, it doesn't change the fact that I am ultimately behind in my classes now. Its time to go Vader on my classes asses.

Strangely, I was slightly saddened, but suddenly was inspired and damn determined to get my shit together and suddenly kick ass. Being the underdog really does light a fire under your ass and hopefully this will be enough to push me to a higher grade. I dunno, usually when this happened, I kind of got sad for a while and sluggishly went through the rest of the quarter, but I feel like this time I have something to prove. The last time I felt like this was last year Spring quarter when I got raped by my Japanese midterm, ranking the 39 out of 44. Being the 5th lowest score out of almost 50 people made me feel like crap, but I did so much freaking work after that test that I pulled out a decent, solid B at the end. It looks like I need to do that with all of my classes this quarter.

It is freaking on like Donkey Kong. I suppose now would be a great time to quote Batman Begins: "Why do we fall, sir? So that we might better learn to pick ourselves up."

Heh, also, I suppose learning how to sing in Japanese helps alleviate the pain. That's probably why I have "Sekai wa Sore wo Ai to Yobundaze" on repeat...

-Dexstrosity_x2
ーデクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of nostalgic K-Pop

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 08:10:08 GMT

I had a rather good day doing a hell of a lot of random work for almost all my classes. Just doing a lot of work makes me feel a lot better about everything really. Although I'm freaking tired as hell right now, I feel like I accomplished a lot. But alas, I think my good day started early this morning while on a Japanese pop music winamp channel listening to music when suddenly a really old K-Pop song. I really couldn't help myself and I'm currently looking for a Lee Jung Hyun Discography. I think my main reason is to listen to Ba Kkwo again XD. Anyway, I'm really tired, so I'm just going to go to sleep now.

Heh, right before I go to sleep, I just realized I want to find some Sukima Switch music as well. Man, I really like 全力少年（Zenryoku Shounen)...

Whee, J-Pop/K-Pop XD.

(EDIT) I actually have enough energy to add to this post like I originally wanted to. Yesterday, I was freaking tired as hell, so the words weren't flowing. However, now I think I actually have enough energy to finish what I started. Anyway, I was watching Jpopsuki for a while, taking a few mental notes on certain bands and what not. Then suddenly T.M Revolution comes on. Never actually listening or seeing any of his PVs before, I watch it. And I can safely say, I really don't like his music too much. Its alright I suppose, but I'm not much of a fan of it personally. Besides, he also has that weird crossdressing look going on, which (along with a lot of Visual Kei bands and pop stars) is popular, but...eh. Still, I enjoy just listening to the channel. It helps me with the Japanese and I feel like its getting slightly easier to understand the songs and such. Heh, I suppose that's all I can really say about J-Pop and K-Pop. Until next time, I suppose this is the best I can do for this for now. Hm, I still want to listen to Ba Kkwo XD.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of miderms (Vol. III)

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 07:03:44 GMT

This is hopefully the second and final week of these goddamn midterms. I'm tired of tests, but at the same times, I think this may be the first time in a long time I'm actually caught up in most of my classes. Save for a few journal entries and a novel or two, I really feel like I'm fully caught up all four of my classes. By posting every day, I'm avoiding falling behind on these journals, but at the same time, I think writing does actually help with the rest of whatever I'm doing. Most of the stuff I write (I'm sure) is not really read by many. Hell, for the most part, I feel like I haven't been writing anything particularly interesting or thought-provoking, just initial reactions and observations from whatever I did today. And for the most part, I feel like that's good enough in my book to actually count as something worth writing. However, my life isn't an action-packed "Gymkata-esque" movie (although sometimes I do wish I knew what "playing a game where nobody wins and nobody lives" would be like XD). So for the most part, I do feel like some of these journals are of me bitching about something, which may be entertaining to some, but annoying as hell for others.

I took part II of III of my Japanese midterm today. As much as other midterms this quarter have been like lambs to the slaughter, I really felt like I did rather decently on this Japanese midterm. Although it was probably the hardest Japanese midterm I have taken so far, I felt at least half confident about many of my answers, which is 1/4th higher than what I feel about my other answers with other midterms. I personally hope that I don't have a repeat of last Japanese quarter in which I scored the 5th lowest score out of two Japanese classes (goddamn, that was a bad day for me -_-). But I think I feel confident enough in my Japanese studying and progression that I did rather decent in this test of mettle. Well, at least I hope so for the sake of my major among other things.

One thing that does rather concern me is that my English 100 midterm is being returned sometime this week. I'm hoping it will be on Thursday because Tuesday is too early for me to be feeling like a piece of crap. At least on Thursdays, I can drown my sorrows in my Screenwriting midterm presentation (which is sorely not prepared for yet). Anyway, I lost my train of thought. I think I'm going to end it here and get some sort of Japanese studying done.

-Dexstrosity_x2
ーデクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of competitive losses

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 06:43:50 GMT

Well, the San Diego Chargers lost to the Minnesota Vikings.

I'm not sure what gravitates me towards Football and competition so much. I think it goes back to when I actually played the sport in high school and that rush of just winning over another team knowing that you've earned that crap with all your sweat. It really was an awesome feeling of just starting the day/night with a good game of football against some players you knew was more physically fit, more ready than you were. However, there was always that underdog feeling that made the sport (both playing and watching) so freaking awesome. I remember one time during my junior year when I was playing on the team still, we went up to Grossmont to play a scrimmage game against some North County schools (which, in San Diego, were the far superior teams versus the South Bay schools...or at least that was the case when I played). I was talking to one of my teammates as I looked out at the wet astro-turf field and the sun was shining. It was about 9 in the morning on a Saturday, and I just loved that feeling of starting the day with full pads, ready to take on a team in organized violence. Man, that feeling was awesome.

There weren't many memories from my stint as a football player in high school. But the memories that were good, man, they were the reason I played the sport. Although I don't miss it much, there are times in which I did don the pads and get into the dirt with the rest of the grunt linemen on both offense and defense. As anyone familiar with football knows: the linemen do the work and hit the most, but the damn linebackers and running backs are the ones who get all the credit. Still, they don't have as much fun as the linemen since they are the ones who actually do the most work.

I am a Charger fan at heart, but I have to admit that the Vikings' win today reaffirms the glory of being an underdog team. There is no doubt that the Chargers had a hell of a lot of talent. However, the Vikings had like three injuries (including one quarterback) and a terrible record, yet they still came up on top and just completely shut down the Chargers.

For that, they get a tip of the hat. However, I still have faith in my Chargers. God damn it, they better win next week.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of Zack & Wiki

Sun, 04 Nov 2007 06:50:24 GMT

Sometimes I don't like coming home to San Diego because just being back here just makes the urge within me to spend money grow into a carnivorous beast. Its really a bad habit of mine to just go out for a drive while in San Diego and to come back with something I really didn't need that was probably really expensive. And like my intuition told me, it happened again today. It's become almost a habit for me and my brother to go out around San Diego on Saturdays just to "look around" at Wal-Mart, Target, Gamestop, Best Buy, any comic book stores we come up to, and book stores. Its usually bad because we end up playing this unofficial competition to make the other person buy as much crap as they can. Again, it happened today and (as much as I say this, it is true) I don't regret a single coin I spent.

I suppose it wasn't that bad today, but I did end up buying a game called Zack & Wiki for the Wii (which I still don't have -_-). At first I wasn't planning on picking it up, but the more I looked at it, the more appealing it looked. After some research and review-reading, I ended up just buying it along the same time my brother bought Guitar Hero III for the Wii. After playing it for about a half an hour, I have to admit, its pretty fun and charming in its own right. I personally like the art of the game, and I'm a bit of a sucker for cutesy characters every now and then. In this case, its a mechanical monkey that can turn into a bell named Wiki. Anyway, the controls are quite awesome and the puzzles are fun. I'm still confused if there is a save feature, but for the sake of skipping the intro (which is sort of long for a puzzle/adventure game) I hope all my data saved before I turned off the system. Overall, I would recommend the game to anyone looking for a single-player game for the Wii. The best part of it is that it can also be multiplayer in the way that four people at the same time can solve one puzzle. It sounds confusing but I'm hoping it will be fun once the time to use the multiplayer comes.

Thankfully, that's all I spent today. Looking at the week ahead, I don't think this will be the only game I'm buying. Fire Emblem: Radiant Dawn for the Wii is coming out, so my roommate and I will probably venture to a Gamestop to get it. Once there, I know King of Fighters XI is scheduled to be released this week along with Neo Geo Battle Coliseum and Fire Pro Returns, which are all 20 bucks a pop. But alas, I must choose one. However, the third Phoenix Wright game also came out along with MLB Power Pros for the Wii came out. I believe that may be the first sports game I would ever buy XP. Anyway, there's a lot of choices and I may have to go hungry for a week or two to get the good stuff.

Wow, that backlog of games sure grew quickly. Well, right now Persona 3 is slowly getting worked through along with Zack & Wiki. DDR Supernova 2 is almost completely unlocked (working towards PARANOiA HADES) and adding something a little bit more free would help with the stress I suppose. I think a comparison of prospective games may be in the future of this blog...maybe...

Man, its finally DST. I've been waiting for this extra hour for a while. I think just a little bit of reading and cleaning should be good for tonight. My original plan of studying kinda went south for the winter, but hopefully tomorrow I can concentrate after the Chargers destroy Minnesota :D.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of pain (ANOTHER)

Sat, 03 Nov 2007 07:16:27 GMT

Jesus of Suburbia, I really think today was by far one of the most painful days I have had in a while. Not painful in the way it was been a few weeks back, but like an overall pain physically and mentally.

It started off really bad this morning when at 7:30 I woke up and suddenly yelled, "UGGHHH...." a sound I made as I sat up and leaned against the wall my bed is by. I look at my roommate whose already awake, giving me a look saying "what the hell?" I respond to his awkwardly silent shock with "Jesus Christ, what the hell? MY LEG." I have an interesting use of words when in pain. "Jesus Christ" was what I remember from this morning, but I'm pretty sure I said a lot more. I grab my leg as the sharp pain of a damn cramp makes my leg rather useless and in pure and utter pain for a few minutes. But in a kind of strange somnambulate and dazed state, I tried to get up (or sit up a little more to try to get up) but suddenly realized the possibility that it was all a dream (and I sort of hoped it was). Instead of getting up, I lay down again raise my right leg and jam my right heel into my cramped left calf and just fall asleep again. It was quite interesting looking back at it now. I'm not sure why I did that, but apparently it alleviated the pain long enough for me to back to sleep.

About an hour later, my roommate wakes me up again so we could study for the Japanese midterm (which is part of the pain in a different sense). Hoping it was all a dream, I sit up, "AW GOD DAMN IT. MY LEG." apparently was what I said as I held my leg for a little bit writhing in a pain I haven't felt in about six years. 'This is going to be a bad day,' was essentially all I was thinking as I tried to massage the pain out of my leg. So after I pulled myself out of bed, I almost fell down walking into the living room, and I immediately began to stretch the hell out of the leg. It still hurt like hell, but I had enough energy to actually get some Japanese studying done and to walk to Jack in the Box to grab some breakfast before the test.

After we grabbed something to eat, me and Roy (my roommate) walked over to the Japanese office to get some practice in before the speaking midterm. When we got there, our sensei wasn't there, but our sensei for 1A-B-C was there. Both of us ended up talking to her for a while, but suddenly someone walks into the office and asks her, "do you believe in kamikaze?" There was a long conversation between the student and our sensei about how that guy who walked in had a Japanese friend who he thinks may commit suicide, and long story short...well, it was depressing and kind of strange at the same time.

When we actually did get some practice in (our sensei got there late, but we did get some stuff in), I had a real confidence destroyer listening to Roy and our sensei talk. They were going at full speed Japanese and I felt like I was behind, so I just got really discouraged really fast. Before the test, I had to regain confidence as fast as I could and luckily I found some in the form of making a bad analogy about how Roy was like Uchiha Sasuke from Naruto, while I was like Naruto...and how I called him a "shounen bastard." It was strange, and rather otaku-ish, but it gave me enough confidence to at least utter something in Japanese for the midterm.

Those were the key parts that really made me tired and rather battle-damaged from today. My leg is still sore, but hopefully its gone tomorrow so I can jog a few laps or something. Not to mention I freakin' missed Avatar today. I'll have to find it on the Interwebs as I study for parts II and III of the Japanese midterm not to mention to start reading Dickens.

OH, FUN IN A BUCKET.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of The Dead Girl

Sat, 03 Nov 2007 06:50:45 GMT

(For those who wonder where this came from, because it wasn't here yesterday, but is here today, don't ask XD)

Today was freaking long as hell. All of my Thursdays are like this, but this one was surprisingly much longer than the typical ones. All of my classes happen all at once and it felt really, really bad. However, I'm past the bitching and moaning (although some couldn't really tell by the way I'm writing today) and its time to man it up and just go on with the whole process. I mean, its already Week 5 meaning its half done and I just have to go through four more "Nights in Heaven, Days in Hell." (XD....don't ask where that came from either). After all the classes I went to watch an independent movie that was being screened on campus today for class. Its usually like five bucks to get in, but the entire screenwriting class got in for free, and free movies are always good, especially in the setup of HIB 100. Also, I thought it was really cool to actually meet the director and writer of the movie and that couldn't be passed up either.

The movie was called The Dead Girl and I was actually impressed. When I first went in I was honestly thinking that it would just drag on rather slowly. Although I'm a film major, a lot of independent movies I can't stand because they're too damn artsy. And its that kind of self-inflection gibberish that really pisses me off sometimes. However, I'm more or less past the hating thing and I just stopped really caring. I like Hollywood, I like some independents, and that's all that matters. Anyway, so I watched the movie and I was very impressed with the intertwining of the five stories that make up the main part of the plot. Although I haven't seen Crash, I think it was a similar concept to that movie. I also thought that Brittany Murphy (Eh, I'm not sure if thats the correct spelling) was really good in the movie as one of the main characters. I was actually impressed. Anyway, it was really good and had this strange effect in that it was so depressing that it made me feel a hell of a lot better (I was feeling like crap today, as the case with many Thursdays). If this is the case, next time I'm really depressed, I should probably pop Requiem for a Dream into my PS2 again XD.

Also, I thought today ended pretty well. I was able to talk to the director a little bit after the screening and got a poster of the movie signed by her. But she stole my Sharpie :(.

On the subject of movies, EVERYONE must do themselves a favor and watch GYMKATA. Trust me, you will not be disappointed.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of midterms (Vol. II)

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 06:21:03 GMT

Its going to be short today, really short. I'm taking a break from studying for my Romantics and Victorians English class midterm tomorrow in the midst of the 9-Hour Bastard Thursday. I originally had the option of doing a final paper rather than a midterm for the class, but as I look ahead to the future, I think it would be wiser to take the midterm rather than the final paper. However, one glaring problem was that I'm really behind in my reading for this class specifically. And when I mean behind, I mean really behind. Although I know its damn near impossible to catch up on all that reading, I am attempting to at least get through most of it and hope for the best for whatever's on that test. I can say that my memory is pretty good and I can remember some lectures. So hopefully that means I can use that as a crutch or last resort if it all comes down to crunch time.

Speaking of crunch time, today is Halloween. Although it doesn't mean much for me this year because its right in the god damn middle of freaking midterms, I do appreciate the cosplaying and costumes I saw at school today. As many guys said, Halloween is an excuse for hot girls to dress like hoochies/insert term here. Not that I'm sexist or anything, but all I have to say is "enjoy the view."

...And that's all I have to say about that.

However, I suppose a really good perk to Halloween is the after-Halloween candy sales everywhere. You can essentially buy enough chocolate to last the rest of winter just after today. Or at least that's enough chocolate to keep someone's sweet tooth filled until after Valentine's Day, which is when the really good stuff goes on sale. White chocolate, dark chocolate, milk chocolate, truffles and chocolate...the list of specific chocolates goes on and on for Valentines Day. In Post-Halloween sales, most of the stuff that goes on sale is the brand-name stuff like Snickers, Three Musketeers, Almond Joys, etc. All of them are good and all, but really, the classy stuff comes Post-Valentine's Day, for those who can wait.

Another great thing about today was that it gave me an excuse to wear my Taiko hat in public XD. Sadly, no pictures, but the spirit was there and I'm glad.

Man, tomorrow's going to suck. At least I can buy cheap-ass chocolate after everything's said and done.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of writer's block

Wed, 31 Oct 2007 02:41:29 GMT

I have a major midterm that I have to write that's due by 3:00 tomorrow, and at the worst of times, I have a major writer's block. I know I usually use it as an excuse, but I think this one really is a bad writer's block. My essay's essentially all written (I did a really in-depth outline of the essay yesterday in my streak of awesome productivity) but for some reason I'm having a huge problem with actually writing the damn thing in essay form. To add insult to injury, the essay's only supposed to be about 3 pages long. That can easily be done in any other class, but I think that the horror stories from my professor have really started to hit me. When I was talking to a classmate during lecture today, she told me how she took Kroll's class for another subject (Kroll is my professor that I'm writing the midterm for) and got a B on the midterm and a C on the final. However, when she told me what he focuses on when grading, I dunno, I think I had the rush of fear and panic run over me faster than anything else before. At that moment 9:30 this morning, I started to slightly panic about the damn thing. It would be fine to panic if I didn't actually start it, but the thing's done. I dunno why the hell it's so damn hard to actually do it, but it is. Hopefully, before 8 or 9, I'll snap out of it and start working like crazy. In my hopes of getting rid of the block right now, I'm writing as much as I can right now. Maybe there's all this shit in my brain just clogging the tubes. I dunno.

Strangely, or not, I had the sudden urge to draw despite my lack of skill or practice. I was in my second English class in the afternoon and really wasn't paying attention to the actual lecture. Instead, I saw the guy sitting in front of me just drawing in the margins Anime and stuff. During most of the class, I really couldn't think of much more except drawing, and although I have an idea in my head, I dunno if it will look as good as I want it to be. I never did get the whole proportion thing down, nor do I think I ever will. However, I think I'm inspired enough to draw. At this point in time I dunno if drawing will actually help my writer's block or worsen it. Its hard to tell at this point, but I'm just hoping it suddenly disappears as I listen to this random mix of music and just thinking if I should draw or just to write crap and revise all night long (baby!).

Hm, just as an aside to help ease the pain, me and my roommate were wondering yesterday exactly what the hell the sweat-drop in Anime means emotionally. My roommate had a class in psychology and his lecture was essentially about emotions and the theory that there are six basic emotions in all societies. I don't remember them right now, but for the sake of my blog and argument, I don't think it matters much. So the big question is what the hell does that sweat-drop mean? I personally think it just means being embarrassed or just embarrassment in general, but it has been used in many different ways. I'm not sure, but its sure something good to think about.

BLAH. IT'S STILL FREAKING THERE. I'M GOING TO DRAW FOR A WHILE DAMN IT.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of midterms

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 07:07:48 GMT

Its the start of my midterms this week and I really couldn't ask for a better Monday than what I had today. My Japanese debate was actually a lot better than I anticipated and I felt really good even after the awkward silences and very broken Japanese. And in a funny way, my loneliness was reestablished with me constantly saying "I want the obligatory chocolate for Valentines Day because I am lonely." (That's a really bad translation to some really bad Japanese XD). However, it was essentially fun felt by all, and that's all that really matters in the end.

After class, I ended up hanging out with some friends and helped with their studying for their Japanese debate later in the day. It was productive enough, but was awesome because we ended up watching The Transformers: The Movie (80s cartoon one) then Street Fighter II: The Movie (the Anime one) during the study session, so again, good times felt by all.

It really was a strangely good Monday. I actually got a good amount of homework done (none of my backlog of course, but at least I'm not falling farther behind XP). But still, the amount of work I got done was surprisingly high considering I was feeling rather lazy for a good amount of the day. Still, the whole journal thing still concerns me, but as long as I keep writing everyday like this (even if it does bore people, not saying it does...), I think I should be kosher.

I think a big part of my stress level really keeping steady is the small bursts of gaming between my studying as well as all those movies I'm watching. It really does help put the midterms in perspective: they really aren't that bad. However, they shouldn't be taken lightly either, and I know that from my crazy-ass criticism professor. Anyway, I'm more or less done with the homework tonight. Tomorrow will be one hell of a day for the rest of my homework, midterms, and daily Japanese homework/studying/Anime-watching. Have to go read some Browning poetry while listening to the The Transformers: The Movie OST before I go to sleep though.

Man, The Touch is like the cat's meow...what is that in Greek? The goat's titties?

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of sicknesses?

Sat, 27 Oct 2007 02:51:27 GMT

My plan for today was to lock myself in the library after Japanese class and power through some readings that I have been lagging on for the first three weeks of school. However, everything didn't go according to plan (obviously, since I'm blogging rather than just reading by myself in the dark corner of the library :P). When I got home this afternoon, I ended up eating lunch and watching Kappa Mikey for about an hour (thank god for Nicktoons Network). When I was getting ready to leave, I felt out of energy and really didn't feel like going back outside in the smoke and dust. In addition, I haven't been feeling well at all in terms of lack of energy, headaches, and congestion to the most extreme. I think its all the smoke around me and the stress recently. However, I know I'll get through it and get better. Actually, I need to get through the sickness or next week does not bode well for my grades at all. Take home essays, in-class essays, and speaking midterms...OH MY!

Although my original plan went to hell, I'm hoping this one doesn't. I still need to catch up with my journals (which this is apart of) and get through the major readings for both of my English classes. Not to mention surviving the Japanese debate coming up real soon.

In a lighter note, I finally watched the first episode of Getsumen to Heiki Mina. I really like that series and its a good change of pace from the stuff I've been watching like Shojo-esque anime. Karin, He is my Master (which I still haven't really watched, but I've read enough), and finally Getsumen to Heiki Mina. Its still really awesome. I mean, girls with vegetable boosters and vegetable weapons wearing bunny ears XD. Besides, it has a really cool introduction theme, which is a song I've been obsessing over for quite a few weeks now.

I think its time to find a Tsukishiro Mina PVC/Resin statue like Yamada had in Densha Otoko XP.

Oh, one last thing, it's freakin' Avatar tonight and I've been waiting all freaking week for the new episode. WHEE, it'll help me get past this week.

-Dexstrosity_x2
ーデクストラシティ＿ｘ２

Go on girl...

Fri, 26 Oct 2007 05:23:48 GMT

Its been a really long week. For anyone not keeping up with California news, essentially all of California is burning. The hardest hit place was San Diego. About half a million people have been evacuated from their homes in East and North Counties in San Diego. Southern San Diego (where I'm from) was threatened for a while. When I heard the news of that, it added to my fear of all of San Diego going up in flames. Its been a really hard past six months and I really, really want 2007 to end. It has been such a terrible past six months that I just want to get through the holidays happily and just say goodbye to this year.

I think I've said this before, but in the past six months I have felt so many different emotions that I knew I would experience, but I would have never imagined I would feel all of them all at the same time. When all the emotions came crashing down on my unsuspecting shoulders, I really didn't know how to react (if you remember about a month ago, that really short post I made). Well, apparently it was just pain. Now I'm past it. And I think this post will reflect my thoughts.

I do consider Her as my first girlfriend. And I suppose I let my guard down. I don't regret any of my decisions nor do I hold any grudges against Her for what she did to me. However, I will not dance around the fact that she did hurt me rather deeply. And not to sound really campy at a serious moment, but this is a case of the first cut being the deepest. It still sorta hurts every now and then, but there was a song that my sister let me listen to to make me feel so much better. However, before I get to that, I'd like to say that, like She did, I deleted her number. If She reads this, I just want you to know that I don't mean to hurt you by not answering. I just...well...it was me healing, and I still don't know if I will ever call you. Anyway, I usually don't do this song lyrics thing, but it really made me feel so much better. I do not mean it to be harmful towards Her, but it really was how I felt.

"Go On Girl"

[V1:]
I can't get it back, but
I don't want it back, I
Realized that,
She don't know how to act
Never been a dumb dude
No I'm not dense
I Just had a slight lack
Of common sense
I was the good guy
She was the bad girl
I'm thinking one girl
She thinking me, earl James and jimmy
Yep she had plenty
But love for me, she didn't have any

I was inviting, her into my heart
But she was out riding in some other man's car
She was my night time, thought I was her star
Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong
Wont take long for me to move on

[Hook:]
Please don't worry bout me I'm fine
(Please don't worry bout me I'm fine)
Only gonna play the fool one time
(Only gonna play the fool one time)
Trust me when I say
That I'll be OK
Go on girl
(Go on girl)
Go on girl
(Go on girl)
Go on girl

[V2:]
I can't get it back, but
I don't want it back, I
Realized that,
She don't know how to act
Tried to settle down and look what I get
Thought it was my time, but I guess not yet
She at the bar getting drinks from many men
I'm in the house, thinking shes with her girlfriends
Trust not knowing, truly not knowing
I look back now like, man, I was open

I was inviting, her into my heart
But she was out riding in some other man's car
She was my night time, thought I was her star
Guess I was wrong, but see I'm strong
Wont take long for me to move on

[Hook]

[Bridge]
The mistake I made is clear
(we never should've been together)
Thats the reason you're not here
(I know that I can do much better)
Not a single salty tear
Not a feeling in my chest
Baby I'm feeling no stress
I'm too fly to be depressed

Go on Girl
Go on Girl
Go on Girl
Go on Girl

[Hook]

Heh, "I'm too fly to be depressed." Pure awesome, and it made me feel so much better. Really, there may be communication, but don't worry about me. Go on girl...go on.

-DeXstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the Midst of unmotivated insanity

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 06:37:53 GMT

Is it me or have I been using the Shadow Man a lot more than recently? I think its time for me to change my userpics some time.

Anyway, I guess today ended up being one of those days that were alright until later on. The mood suddenly changed. I think it might be because I'm in my room doing homework but am very unmotivated. I think my procrastination is starting to really catch up with me in the worst way possible and its making me feel like crap. The optimism has to recharge I suppose.

In some relatively good news, my comic backlog is back to zero, which means I'm all caught up with my series. Captain America: The Chosen is alright for being half way through the mini-series. But it's a bit confusing. Marvel Zombies 2 is...uh...I dunno weird, but funny in a dark sadistic kind of way. Umbrella Academy is really good, but a little hard to get into at first. I suppose its one of those series that just grow after a while. Green Arrow/Black Canary is awesome, but I find it funny that Superman is a douchebag once again, if not a bit of a moron.

Bleh, I need to snap out of this feeling of...quiet insanity? The ironic thing is that the assignment I'm really far behind on is the "daily journal" for my Screenwriting class. Not to mention I'm a bit pissed off at myself because I could do my Japanese Homework but I forgot an important page for homework. That blasted Japanese essay's coming up soon too as well as a debate.

Heh, I know what will cheer me up...He is my Master XD.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/He_is_my_Master

Damn it all, I need to find my motivation-mojo.

-DeXstrosity_X2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of recovery

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 03:01:32 GMT

I feel a lot better than I did this weekend. On a scale of 1 to 10, this weekend ranked a 1. It was that bad. There were four times I've felt that crappy in my life and all of them have happened in the past six months. Yeah, it can't be good for my emotional health, but whatever doesn't kill me makes me stronger I suppose.

Although I haven't felt that great emotionally, I got to give it up to my roommates and friends for making me feel a hell of a lot better. Not to mention there's Persona 3, where kicking ass by your character shooting their selves in the head makes me feel immensely better as well. School has, strangely, helped as well. The whole "too busy to think about yourself" is working wonders, especially since I'm procrastinating way too much. So the stress of late stuff helps with the healing. Still, there are a few resonating feelings that are less than stellar. That, I can blame on myself though. I suppose I just have to learn when not to look and when to look. Dunno if that made any sense, but it doesn't matter if it did or not. I hope these feelings just kinda fade away.

Like I said yesterday, my roommate Eric and myself went on one hell of a Transformers run and I have to admit, both the battle damaged Concept and the classic look kick ass:

The glow in his eyes is freakin' awesome :P. Anyway, the Chargers won yesterday and new Heroes tonight will help. Not to mention a hell of a lot of homework...damn, that's going to suck.

Now, I'm going to drown myself in the frustration of Ouendan 2 as I attempt to beat it on Insane Mode.

-Dexstrosity_x2
ーデクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the midst of the pain

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 19:24:49 GMT

I made a decision yesterday that I considered for a long time, but never really got around to really saying it. I know in my heart that it was one I had to make, but I didn't think it would still affect me in some sort of way. In reality, I know helps a lot and I really needed to get what I had to say off of my chest, but I didn't think I would feel it as much as I am right now. It hurts, but I stand my ground: it had to be done.

She was a good friend, but one that hurt me rather deeply. To this day, there have been very few instances when I felt so bad that it depressed me for a while. This was one of them, but for some reason, I know in my heart that She never meant any of it. Still, the damage has been done, and there's nothing else that can change that, ever.

I was depressed for almost the entire day yesterday, despite my roommates' attempts to cheer me up (which I will go into more in-depth later), but I felt so much better after the talk with Her. Really, I didn't know what I was going to say when I called Her, but I knew I had a goal. It was the time I needed to really "man it up," for a lack of a better term, and finally stop moping and make the decision.

She still is one of my best friends, and I don't regret saying it. I know She said She wanted to delete my number so that She wouldn't be tempted to call me, and I wanted to say the same thing. However, I did make another decision: I will not delete Her number. It leaves a sense of optimism and hope. I don't hate Her, but I don't think I can talk to Her for a while, just so I can regain my composure and heal.

Sadly, I'm not sure how long it will take. But I do know that in the future, there will be communication.

No worries. Rest assured, you didn't lose a friend.

...Huggies ^^;;;.

---

Anyway, in the midst of my pain yesterday, the attempts of my roommate yesterday to cheer me up ended up almost eradicating my bank account. However, do I regret it? Hell no...

Yep, I spent a hell of a lot of cash yesterday on stuff I probably didn't need, but was good to have. From bottom left to top Right: Two Evolution of a Hero: Classic/Concept Bumblebee movie packs, Classic Superstars 3-Pack: Terry Funk, Cactus Jack, and Sabu, Limited Edition The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya Volume 3.

WHOO! Three Evolution of a Hero packs LOL. One for me, one for my brother, and one that's my roommates. We went to so many places yesterday just looking for Transformers toys that it was ridiculous. And he ended up convincing me that it really was worth it. And yes it was :D.

We ended up going to Toys-R-Us and I saw this pack with Cactus Jack on sale. For a long-ass time, I've been hoping for a Cactus Jack Classic Superstars figure because they are hands down the best wrestling figure line that Jakks ever put out. I was so happy to see it and I don't regret owing my roommate 20 bucks for the awesomeness XD.

The reason I wanted the Volume 3 Limited Edition XD. It comes with this pillowcase, and I don't regret it at all. Its worth my 50 bucks for it. Besides, the cover is the Nagato one, which is still my favorite character. Watching Haruhi yesterday actually made me feel better as well, and just for the record, I do plan to use that pillowcase XD.

Well, I do feel a lot better, but I'm still sad. Hopefully everything will work out and we can talk to each other again. Until then, I think my geekiness will help me through everything.

Chargers are playing Raiders today. ITS FREAKIN' ON!

-DeXstrosity_x2
デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

Sun, 16 Sep 2007 07:32:55 GMT

I thought I would never feel something like this before...but I guess I needed to.

It hurts.

I'm not invincible or indestructible. I think it just needed a few hours for that truth to sink in.

It hurts so much....but I can't shed any tears. Never was my style.

-DeXstrosity X2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

The Lonely Guy/Bachelor Clip of the Week Volume 1.5

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 01:10:27 GMT

I planned the LG&B CotW to be a weekly thing, but since this is the last day of August (and to many, "true" summer), I feel like I need to finish the week off with a bang. Especially after how the week has been (especially yesterday), this cheers me up a hell of a lot. Yes, seeing and commenting on things that make lonely guys feel lonelier than they are now and making bachelors appreciate their single status makes me feel alive :P. On with the festivities:

The Lonely Guy Clip of the Week
The Zack Morris and Kelly Kapowski Break Up at Senior Prom

WHY? I was really torn on either making this the Lonely Guy clip or the Bachelor clip, but I ended up choosing the clip as the Lonely guy clip because of the end part. The song is enough to make a man who just broke up cry, but the end part shows that even the most suave guy can be cheated on by a girl. Although the song was good, it sounded a hell of a lot better when I watched it so many years ago. It also gives a lesson that despite Zack getting all the girls, he should be respected because he "Man'd up." He was the guy who confronted the cheating Kelly, and damn it, lonely guys can learn a lesson from his bravery. MAN IT UP GUYS, MAN IT UP LIKE ZACK MORRIS!

The Bachelor Clip of the Week
Jessie's On Pills?!

WHY? ....HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. If you don't see why I chose this as a Bachelor Clip, just see that it was chosen by College Humor. That should be enough reason. I'm not sure if I can even express the comedy in words. Although I see the anti-drug abuse message and appreciate Peter Engel for doing it, it's pure camp. Its so campy its awesome. And, well, Bachelors love camp. Why the hell not? "I'm so excited, I'm so excited, I'm so...so scared!"

Freakin' awesome.

-DeXstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

The Lonely Guy/Bachelor Clip of the Week Voulume 1

Mon, 27 Aug 2007 23:31:08 GMT

As many people do, we all surf Youtube when we're bored as hell. I do more even so when I feel lonely, and even more when I feel like a bachelor....eh, if that makes any sense. Anyway, I came to a realization when I went back to San Diego that I should share my grief and pain to the world, showing what I watch on Youtube in hopes of helping another lonely guy/bachelor out there.

Okay, its ridiculous, but damn it, its fun as hell :P Now, on with the first set of many!

The Lonely Guy Clip of the Week
Dahil Mahal na Mahal Kita by Roselle Nava Videoke

WHY? At first, I heard the cover by Rachelle Ann Go, but then I realized that, although she's cute and closer to my age, it was too freakin' fake to me. It felt too embellished at some points. Anyway, after listening to the song over and over again, it made me realize that it is truly, a lonely guy's song. Although it can work for girls too, you would be surprised how much damage a Filipino ballad can do to a guy, especially if you understand the lyrics ;_;.

The Bachelor Guy Clip of the Week
Rainbow by South Border Music Video

WHY? Hmmm, this may the first week, and probably the only week, that there will be two Filipino Ballads as both selections. The song's great, one truly lonely guy song. However, the video sucks....badly. I find it completely stupid singing the damn song in snow and strange cross cuts from the band, to the lead singer and his girlfriend, then cross fades to each person playing a different instrument. And finally, them swaying off sync really does kill it. So, South Border, you get a tip of a hat for the song...and hell, you get a toast for giving bachelors hope that even suave Filipino boy bands can make crap videos. Thank you sirs.

-DeXstrosity X2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２