Waiting for my copy of Fire Pro to get here has been really painful. It shipped yesterday and now I'm just killing time playing other games and (surprise!) studying. Still, I really want some awesome Japanese pro wrestling action. That prompted me to go on youtube to just find awesome clips probably from the KENTA/Marufuji rivalry from way back when. However, when I was searching, I realized how much freaking better Japanese women's professional wrestling is to much of men's American professional wrestling in the States. Its not much of a matter of sexism as it is of just pure talent some of the Puroresu ladies show in the ring. God damn, some of that stuff is just inhuman. Still, I gotta admit that one of my favorite wrestlers of All time is Megumi Kudo, who retired in the late 90s I believe when being known as one of the best Women's deathmatch wrestlers ever. I still have some of her matches on DVD and they are quite awesome. Also, her finisher was freakin' awesome and just looks sick as hell. The Kudome Valentine, aka the Vertibreaker was a sick looking reverse piledriver. Homicide from LAX in TNA uses it and calls it the "Gringo Killer" but it was toned down to be a bit more safe. Instead of landing on the back of ones neck like with the Kudome Valentine, Homicide sort of jumps so that the opponent can land on his back. It doesn't look as good, but that's just my personal opinion.

I did find this video on youtube of "the greatest Women's wrestling finishers" and I got to admit a lot of those looks sick as hell. So much so that I may look up the matches of some of the ladies because the fights look really good. Seriously though, Moonsault Double Stomp? FREAKING AWESOME. You must see it for yourself:



Man, I really hope Fire Pro gets here on Monday so I have Thanksgiving for KOF, Fire Pro, and Persona 3 :D.

-Dexstrosity_x2
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Doing laundry always makes me feel better after I get it done. Its a little strange, but I really do feel a lot better once all my clothes are clean again. I like to do laundry when I'm a little troubled. And I suppose it was really good timing.

I don't rank today as one of those days like yesterday. Yesterday was a really good day for me on several levels. Beyond the awesomeness of King of Fighters XI, I did have an interesting conversation with a friend of mine and when I have good conversations with friends, it does make me feel a lot better. Beyond that, the day was just really good and productive. It was enough productivity to keep my mind off the stupid things I was worrying about for the past few weeks. Besides, I think it is time to finally exorcise those negative feelings and just leave it in the dust for good.

Laundry helps me with the process. It is literally cleaning, so I can clean off all of those negative feelings from midterms and my life in general. And its a nice feeling knowing that all of your clothes are clean after all ^^. There is a bit of a peeve I have about doing laundry: it cost so damn much. I'm always somewhat disgruntled when I walk up to that Laundry Web Access machine, knowing I'm spending at least $10 to recharge my laundry card. And the actual prices for the washer and dryer aren't too great either. Usually, the majority of that $10 is gone within three loads of washing/drying. And that's usually why I go back to San Diego to do laundry. However, I haven't been back to San Diego in more than two weeks now, and I'm having mixed feelings about the whole thing. I haven't been away from home this long since I believe freshman year and I do sort of miss being at home for a short weekend. I just need to get through three days and I can head home for the long Thanksgiving break, something I have been waiting for for a long time now. I really want the holidays to be here because that means that 2007 is almost over. I'm seriously done with this year and looking forward to the future at this point.

As a parting note for today: I used to be an advent writer but now I just write in this journal everyday as an attempt to try to find a love in writing. I think the best kind of writing (or the one that really does make me feel better, which is my only concern at this point) is the random writing. The only other type of writing that really does make me feel better is writing about my emotions. Just describing my mood and how I feel is a story in itself. Sometimes the story sucks, and other times it sucks even more, however like I said earlier, this writing is just to make myself feel better. In relation to that Personality test I took earlier this week, I am a very emotional person and I guess this blog is the closest manifestation of how I feel in a controlled way. Still, it never beats just talking to me in person. That in itself is a bit of a story.

I suppose that rant was quite random. Oh well, hope everyone has a good weekend.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-ーデクストラシティ＿ｘ２

I was so freaking happy when I went to Play N Trade after my late class on a whim and found a copy of King of Fighters XI for 15 bucks. I originally ordered it online along with Fire Pro Wrestling Returns on Buy.com because of a $10 discount, which means I would be getting one of the games for an awesome 7 dollars WITH shipping included. However, when I got home from class, I checked my email to see if they actually sent the package, but to my surprise they had KoFXI delayed. So it prompted me to cancel it and buy it then and there :D. I was so glad to return and buy it, finding out it was the last copy there.



Hell yes. It was quite a good way to end the day. When I popped the game into my PS2, I was even more satisfied playing through the game and learning the awesome stuff of the game. The art is really nice, the fighting is nice and updated and everything of the game just lived up to my expectations. It is an awesome fighting game. I do admit that I am more of a KoF guy than a Street Fighter guy (which explains why I still think CvS2 is an awesome game). Now it comes down to learning some characters I've always learned, not taking tiers into consideration:

Iori Yagami - Leader
Terry Bogard - Support I
Whip/Tizoc/Yuri - Support II

As you can see, Iori and Terry are pretty much set as my main guys. But the reason I keep Iori as leader is that I like his Dream Cancel better than Terry's Dream Cancel. Since Iori does Maiden Masher and Dream Cancels into his LDS, it does more damage and looks a lot cooler too. Terry is good for good quick shots and some classic Garou Combos. Now, either using Whip, Tizoc, or Yuri still has me thinking because I'm not sure which one I like more. Whip and Tizoc are more capture type of people, but Yuri has a balance in which she is similar to Ryu and Ken from Street Fighter with some major differences. However, learning how to use Whip is pretty awesome. Besides, one of her moves is Desert Eagle, which is awesome all in itself, but a little on the useless side.

I haven't gone through all of the game yet. Right now Roy's playing Mario Galaxy, which I'm having a blast just watching and waiting until Winter break to dive into the game. Hopefully, my other copy of KoFXI is cancelled and my copy of Fire Pro Returns gets here soon. I'm having a hankering for some 4-on-4 Survivor Series style elimination Deathmatches.

Its on to Japanese homework...among other things.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

It happens that I ended up procrastinating again for another project that ends up messing with the rest of my homework assignments. This means that my backlog for homework has been growing once again. Although I have to admit that the first chapter of Through the Looking Glass from Alice in Wonderland was actually pretty good. Still, I only read one chapter of about 12 or something. Bleh, that's something I have to do over this weekend hopefully and I don't get all lazy all of a sudden.

Right now I'm taking a break from my screenwriting homework, which is arguably my only real homework. Still, I have other things to do as well. Most of it probably pertaining to Japanese and my constant study for it. I think out of all my subjects, Japanese is one of those subjects in which I essentially fell in love with. I really do enjoy studying Japanese no matter how difficult it gets. Although I don't have enough time to really put some hardcore studying into Japanese, I wish I did. I really do like studying that language despite my "introverted" nature. (The last statement is actually a subject for a completely different time where I have enough time to talk about "the most accurate personality test I have ever taken...ever")

Still, I feel rather good about the last minute burst of creativity I'm getting with this homework assignment. It was a really really slow start, but it's speeding up in a hurry and hopefully I have enough time to do some extra stuff to cover all the bases for the damn screenwriting class (aka the bane of my fall quarter).

The music really does help with this painful process of homework. Just listening to the entire Persona 3 soundtrack makes me appreciate both the music and the game a hell of a lot more than I did before. It has some kickass music.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

This is bad. For the entire weekend, I just essentially shut down academically and didn't do any homework until tonight. I stared about an hour ago and luckily finished at around 11, meaning I can still get a good 8 hours of sleep in tonight. However, I have this feeling of a resonant laziness that hopefully can be slept off. I have learned in the past that it usually isn't that easy. When coming back from long weekends, one of two things happen. One is that I actually study everyday over the weekend and I don't feel like I have been taken out of the school element. Second is that I completely shut down to recharge and have this kind of "warming up" effect either the day before or the day of returning to school. Right now I'm having the second effect happen to me both mentally and slightly physically. Although it isn't an actual school-day today, I feel really lazy and I hope it doesn't carry into tomorrow, but I have a feeling it will because of the feeling of being unprepared. In addition, tomorrow is the day when I receive my midterm for E100 back, meaning I'll see the D grade that I knew I would get when writing the goddamn thing. Its not that I'm angry at the class or teacher, but more at myself for being such a terrible student this quarter. My performance is usually decent, but for some reason this quarter has been extremely streaky and overall bad. I can go on and on about stuff that has happened to me, but at this point it doesn't matter. I fucked up for the most part. I know I should just focus on school. And although it may be a bit late, it is going to happen. Things do change, and although it is going to be hard, I will change.

Going off of more of my otaku-style of going about life, I'm going to start viewing my life a bit more like Persona 3's way of simulating a social life. I know, it sounds stupid, but making reality into smaller, more manageable tasks like the ones in Persona 3 will help me get through the toughest quarter I have had yet. I have about 4 weeks to turn my grade into a C or above. Hopefully my new way of looking at reality will help a little bit. It will probably end up with two choices at the end of the day: sleep early or study. And looking at the end of my day like that will help me realize what I need to do any what-not.

Its been a strange weekend in terms of what I've been feeling. The weekend was very restful and I got several hours of backlogged gaming in. However I really felt like something was missing or just felt like I was disturbed by something that I don't even know about. Even now, I'm wondering what it is, but I'll probably drop it soon, seeing that since I don't remember it, it probably wasn't that important anyway.

I really need to pick up my game in terms of academics. To hell if I were to really lay down and get my ass kicked by my classes for the rest of the quarter.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In the same vein as I spent the day today, whatever I'm talking about for today will probably be somewhat random, very jumpy, and probably non-sensible to some, but it makes absolutely perfect sense in my mind. In the end, isn't that all that matters? Of course, now moving on.

I suppose the reason I actually pulled myself to actually write a blog and a couple was the fact that the freakin' Chargers pulled out a win today against the Colts. I really do respect the Colts, they're worthy opponents and I don't mind them being the rivals rather than those bastard Patriots (which I really, really don't like). Besides, today was a good match although a lot of the Colts starting line was injured over the past few weeks. Still, for the Chargers: a win is a win. Although it really doesn't alleviate what happened from last week, it still helped a hell of a lot with the healing. The Chargers Defense was really good and the special teams was just kick-ass. If anything, it almost seems like the defense did better with Cromartie at Jammer's place. Overall, it was a hell of a game, especially since it was a rain game and that in itself caused a lot of drama. Rivers dropping the ball in the end zone trying to pass?! People slipping all over the place? OMGWTFBBQ?!

Other than the Chargers game, I would say that today was exciting in an uneventful way. I believe that today was the first time in a while I could just sit back and relax without something breathing down my neck like homework and such. There is a bit of a break for midterms before the third tier of midterms starting around Wednesday with a Japanese quiz and the second part of my groups' screenwriting midterm. Last week went rather well and I was excited about that, we just need to finish off this and the rest of the class is essentially cake. However, just writing the actual script may be a little challenging for all of us in the group. Its a hell of a lot of work and I would be lying if I said I didn't care. Besides, I still need to receive those terrible grades for my English midterm and get torn apart by the professor multiple times to actually just get a C probably. Ugh, that'll be fun. Hell yes.

As for today, I didn't worry about what I said in the paragraph above. I just sat in my apartment, starting at around 7 this morning. I ended up essentially playing Persona 3 all day until the Chargers game started at 5:15. When I started playing this morning, my game timer was at about 4 hours of game-time. At the end of the day, my timer was at about 13 hours. I believe that this was the most I've ever played in a day and I don't regret a single minute of it. From helping my best friend in the game ask out his teacher to fighting a boss in a game with a "B" and a "J" for nipples and her legs spread, every single minute was awesome :D. And I would do it again anytime. Hopefully I can, but balancing Persona 3, Zack & Wiki, King of Fighters 02/03/XI, and Super Mario Galaxy will be one hell of a task. Oh well, it'll have to be done.

In other news, my roommate Roy is currently playing Fire Emblem: Radiant Dawn and although I'm too damn impatient for turn-based strategy games, its quite fun just watching the game and how goddamn frustrating the game is for him. Really, its like a bastard game of chess with beautiful artwork and music. I really like the artwork and the characters names in the game. There are some freaking awesome names: Micaiah, Zihark, Nephenee, Mordecai, the list goes on and on. Most of them are indeed on my awesome names list along with notable names like Xepher and Cornelius.

As one more note, on a really random impulse, I ended up telling my brother to pick me up a Deluxe class Barricade Transformers Movie figure. Again, I'm not sure why, but it does make me quite happy XD.

Hm, Micaiah...I really like that name. :D

-Dexstrosity_x2
ーデクストラシティ＿ｘ２

This is an interesting exercise I just thought of right now that would probably help with that memory problem I think I have with trying to recollect just a few days ago. Since it's actually the 8th, I want to see how much of the 6th I actually remember. It may be strange, and I may tangent when I feel like I'm floundering, but still, I think it would be good to recollect every now and then. Besides, I didn't write anything for that day, and I think this would count if I remembered what actually happened that day for that day.

The biggest thing I remember happening on Tuesday was that abysmal Kanji test for my Japanese class. Although it was funny, it was also rather disheartening when she told other people they just need to change one, while when my sensei picked up my test, she really didn't know what to say. I can laugh about it now since it has already happened, but at the time, it was both funny and a blow to my confidence, albeit a small one. However, I did survive to fight another day and I think I am slowly developing a decent way of studying Kanji so I can actually remember how to write them as well as their meanings. It doesn't sound like much, but I do admit I am a slow learner. It does take a little grinding of the gears for me to actually get concepts down. It may be because of my lack of confidence every now and then, but at the same time, even when I am confident, things aren't recollected properly and what I thought is right is actually wrong. Its an ugly scene when it happens.

Other than the kanji test, the second event I remember vividly from Tuesday is the big screenwriting meeting I had with my screenwriting group to attempt to finish our basic story. It was a long and painful grind, with many writer's blocks and painful silences. We were able to get through about half of our script in a three-hour block, which was really good progress looking back at it. I just remember after that just kind of being dead in front of my computer, unable to write anything. Therefore, I don't feel bad visiting that day.

It wasn't much in terms of action-packed non-stop action, but it was my life on November 6th, and I lived it. I guess this is where I bid adieu, with nothing really noteworthy to say. However, I suppose I can quote something that my English professor said in the near future: "The Book of Genesis can essentially be summed up like this: 'Bitch! It's all your fault! You took the fucking fruit!'"

Peace out ya'll！

-Dexstrosity_x2
ーデクストラシティ＿ｘ２

In all honesty, I'm not even sure what to write at this point. I have this tendency of having something to write in the middle of the day, but when I actually get around to writing what I had for an idea, I just completely forget it. It really is a bad trait that I've tried to exorcise, but for some reason, I never truly change it. I suppose you can say I'm just forgetful, and I'm hoping that actually updating my journal every day will help with my memory recollection. In the case of today's journal, I don't know if it will have the same effect as when I first ran the idea through my mind earlier today, but I hope it turns out as well as I want it to.

So today wasn't a good day. Although it ended on a high note, it started off crappily, it got worse throughout the middle of the day, the crescendo reached around 3:30 (which will be explained later on), and suddenly all negativity was wiped away in my last class. Although it was a really bad day for the most part, I'm pretty sure the last class made up for most of what happened today. What made my day rather terrible wasn't what I did or didn't do (like usual) but what I actually found out today that really kind of brought me down. As you can tell from the title of today, it was basically the aftermath of my midterms, in which I actually found out what my grades were. They were (I believe for the first time) rather average. Usually, I'm somewhat happy with at least most of my grades, but for some reason, this quarter, I dunno. I think it may be because of everything that's happened outside of my academic life recently, but my grades really did suck this time around.

I found out that in my Japanese Class, I scored a crappy score opposed to my peers. Later on that day during my discussion for my Criticism class, the entire class found out from the teacher that everyone "didn't do so well," but she didn't tell us the details. Later, during my Romantics and Victorians English class, I found out that I got a B- on the midterm, bringing my confidence rather low. In my screenwriting class, I found out that our collective group as a whole forgot to label the things we were supposed to for our script, making me believe that we were going to do really badly on the midterm. However, when it came down to actually presenting the midterm, we actually did pretty well and the two group members who wrote the final draft really did an awesome job polishing the script. So I was happy, and luckily it ended on a good note. However, it doesn't change the fact that I am ultimately behind in my classes now. Its time to go Vader on my classes asses.

Strangely, I was slightly saddened, but suddenly was inspired and damn determined to get my shit together and suddenly kick ass. Being the underdog really does light a fire under your ass and hopefully this will be enough to push me to a higher grade. I dunno, usually when this happened, I kind of got sad for a while and sluggishly went through the rest of the quarter, but I feel like this time I have something to prove. The last time I felt like this was last year Spring quarter when I got raped by my Japanese midterm, ranking the 39 out of 44. Being the 5th lowest score out of almost 50 people made me feel like crap, but I did so much freaking work after that test that I pulled out a decent, solid B at the end. It looks like I need to do that with all of my classes this quarter.

It is freaking on like Donkey Kong. I suppose now would be a great time to quote Batman Begins: "Why do we fall, sir? So that we might better learn to pick ourselves up."

Heh, also, I suppose learning how to sing in Japanese helps alleviate the pain. That's probably why I have "Sekai wa Sore wo Ai to Yobundaze" on repeat...

-Dexstrosity_x2
ーデクストラシティ＿ｘ２

I had a rather good day doing a hell of a lot of random work for almost all my classes. Just doing a lot of work makes me feel a lot better about everything really. Although I'm freaking tired as hell right now, I feel like I accomplished a lot. But alas, I think my good day started early this morning while on a Japanese pop music winamp channel listening to music when suddenly a really old K-Pop song. I really couldn't help myself and I'm currently looking for a Lee Jung Hyun Discography. I think my main reason is to listen to Ba Kkwo again XD. Anyway, I'm really tired, so I'm just going to go to sleep now.

Heh, right before I go to sleep, I just realized I want to find some Sukima Switch music as well. Man, I really like 全力少年（Zenryoku Shounen)...

Whee, J-Pop/K-Pop XD.

(EDIT) I actually have enough energy to add to this post like I originally wanted to. Yesterday, I was freaking tired as hell, so the words weren't flowing. However, now I think I actually have enough energy to finish what I started. Anyway, I was watching Jpopsuki for a while, taking a few mental notes on certain bands and what not. Then suddenly T.M Revolution comes on. Never actually listening or seeing any of his PVs before, I watch it. And I can safely say, I really don't like his music too much. Its alright I suppose, but I'm not much of a fan of it personally. Besides, he also has that weird crossdressing look going on, which (along with a lot of Visual Kei bands and pop stars) is popular, but...eh. Still, I enjoy just listening to the channel. It helps me with the Japanese and I feel like its getting slightly easier to understand the songs and such. Heh, I suppose that's all I can really say about J-Pop and K-Pop. Until next time, I suppose this is the best I can do for this for now. Hm, I still want to listen to Ba Kkwo XD.

-Dexstrosity_x2
-デクストラシティ＿ｘ２

This is hopefully the second and final week of these goddamn midterms. I'm tired of tests, but at the same times, I think this may be the first time in a long time I'm actually caught up in most of my classes. Save for a few journal entries and a novel or two, I really feel like I'm fully caught up all four of my classes. By posting every day, I'm avoiding falling behind on these journals, but at the same time, I think writing does actually help with the rest of whatever I'm doing. Most of the stuff I write (I'm sure) is not really read by many. Hell, for the most part, I feel like I haven't been writing anything particularly interesting or thought-provoking, just initial reactions and observations from whatever I did today. And for the most part, I feel like that's good enough in my book to actually count as something worth writing. However, my life isn't an action-packed "Gymkata-esque" movie (although sometimes I do wish I knew what "playing a game where nobody wins and nobody lives" would be like XD). So for the most part, I do feel like some of these journals are of me bitching about something, which may be entertaining to some, but annoying as hell for others.

I took part II of III of my Japanese midterm today. As much as other midterms this quarter have been like lambs to the slaughter, I really felt like I did rather decently on this Japanese midterm. Although it was probably the hardest Japanese midterm I have taken so far, I felt at least half confident about many of my answers, which is 1/4th higher than what I feel about my other answers with other midterms. I personally hope that I don't have a repeat of last Japanese quarter in which I scored the 5th lowest score out of two Japanese classes (goddamn, that was a bad day for me -_-). But I think I feel confident enough in my Japanese studying and progression that I did rather decent in this test of mettle. Well, at least I hope so for the sake of my major among other things.

One thing that does rather concern me is that my English 100 midterm is being returned sometime this week. I'm hoping it will be on Thursday because Tuesday is too early for me to be feeling like a piece of crap. At least on Thursdays, I can drown my sorrows in my Screenwriting midterm presentation (which is sorely not prepared for yet). Anyway, I lost my train of thought. I think I'm going to end it here and get some sort of Japanese studying done.

-Dexstrosity_x2
ーデクストラシティ＿ｘ２